They’re cemented in my brain: long afternoons spent helping to glue pictures to timelines, proofread creative writing, sprinkle glitter on poster-sized bar charts.
Some of my children love the creative process. Their eyes light up at the anticipation of drawing, clipping, glueing and painting. They love to dream big. They don’t fear being wrong. I’ve found that the hardest part about having a child with a strong creative vision is helping them fit that-when needed-into the context of an assignment.
Some of my children loathe the creative process. Give them finite equations. Give them objective truths. They squirm at the idea of an open ended assignment. The most important thing is the formula. They just want to get the right answer. The hardest part with this type of child? Getting started. They feel overwhelmed at all of the choices and they struggle to enjoy all the stops and starts of creating your way toward an answer.
And I struggle with this, this worshipping the product over the process. Even in my creativity, I reach a point where I just want to be done already. But I also want it to look good.
I want it to be beautiful, successful, rewarding, happy, just how I always wanted it and I want it to overwhelm all the hard things it took to get there. The process? I’m done. Just hurry up already God. I get it. Move on. Even thirty minutes ago, I wondered aloud to my husband: “Why does he have to do it THIS way?” I want things to be right but I also want them to align with my self-driven vision.
I hope in the product (on my terms) more than the process.
Here’s something true: God is in control of the product.
All of our days were written in His book of life before we were ever born.
He appointed good works for us before we were ever born.
He is at work in us to do as He pleases.
Jesus called it finished.
It is God who completes the good work He begins in us.
God is in control of the product. Not me.
So I want to take my eyes off the product for a little while. I can trust Him with that. Instead, I’m going to choose to hope in the process. It is not wasted. God is doing something in the process. He’s creating life in me. He’s transforming me. He knows where He’s going and it is a good place. But so is this. I will hope in that.
What about you? Are you process or product?